Let it

Let it go for now.  Let it go, for good.

For you're forbidden and final. Without your  touch, with my touch. Never again. Actually, there never was.  

Let it go. Let it go for good. 

For someone as old as me not knowing what the feeling of spooning is, a pressing of your mouth against the back of my neck and inhaling, holding my smaller hand with your larger one,  across my stomach...it is devastating.  

Let it go. Come on, just anything. Let me finally feel this emptiness.  

Teenage feels

Usually all it takes is one glance.

You feel thrilled, sensing that zapping between you, that sizzling, yet shockingly cold ...energy. It confuses your senses, it confuses your whole being so much so, you  have to bite your lips to stop trembling. Even when you're not feeling trembling at all.

You feel your dark hero.

For me, it was a deep line between his eyebrows arched over his big eyes. 

His never tired and always shining gaze that sees so much.

Eyes that  have always reminded me of a dark, bitter chocolate.

Should I thank him now that I'm finally feeling again? Maybe I should, for I cheated myself for so long that I don't even know how to look at anyone anymore.

Now I have my dark knight to look at.

I want his strength to melt my bones. I wish his emotions to be so strong to wipe out every single cell of my history. I want his kisses to bite out the taste of every kiss before his.

A soul mate of my darkness. My love. I'll feel hollow without him. 

 

Infinity

I count my steps recounting this cold November day. I’m hearing silence stronger than ever.  I hear each and every rustle of leafs still hanging in the trees above me.  And begging God to stop my wanting, suffocating, dreaming, crying …over you. Last night I dreamed of you walking with my hand in yours, your glances... I still remember feeling suffocation, fear, palpitation of my heart and your silent strength. Still, I loved each feeling you had evoked in me.

And now, now all it took to start crying over us is one single flower and feel ...the infinity tears. And feel infinity scarf around my neck, warming my cold cheeks, sipping my tears like a tea, warming my thin lips.
Infinity scarf that once used to make me panic, while trying to catch breath and while you silently calmed me down with ‘shhhh’ and ‘it’s okay’ and ‘I got you’ and looking at me like a good doctor, like a priest, like the devil while your deft fingers untangled my hair from it and enabling my breathing, inhaling me, kissing my neck.

My hero, my knight, my friend…it took infinity to get a single flower.

Better When He's Bad - Jay Crownover

Title:  Better When He’s Bad (Welcome to the Point #1)

Author:  Jay Crownover

Genre:  New Adult

Publication Date:  June 17, 2014

Publisher: William Morrow an imprint of HarperCollins Publishing 

Event Organized by: Literati Author Services, Inc.

Welcome to the Point

There’s a difference between a bad boy and a boy who’s bad . . . meet Shane Baxter.

Sexy, dark, and dangerous, Bax isn’t just from the wrong side of the tracks, he is the wrong side of the tracks. A 

criminal, a thug, and a brawler, he’s the master of bad choices, until one such choice landed him in prison for five 

years. Now Bax is out and looking for answers, and he doesn’t care what he has to do or who he has to hurt to get 

them. But there’s a new player in the game, and she’s much too innocent, much too soft…and standing directly in 

Dovie Pryce knows all about living a hard life and the tough choices that come with it. She’s always tried to be good, 

tried to help others, and tried not to let the darkness pull her down. But the streets are fighting back, things have 

gone from bad to worse, and the only person who can help her is the scariest, sexiest, most complicated ex-con The 

Point has ever produced.

Bax terrifies her, but it doesn’t take Dovie long to realize that some boys are just better when they’re bad.

Pre-Order Links:  Amazon | Barnes & Noble | Books-A-Million | IndieBound

About the Author

I’m supposed to share interesting details about myself so that my readers get to know me so here we go 

in no particular order: I’m an natural redhead even though I haven’t seen my real hair color in years, I’m 

a big fan of tattoos and have a half sleeve on either arm and various other pieces all over the place, I’ve 

been in the bar industry since I was in college and it has always offered interesting insight into how men 

and women interact with each other, I have 3 dogs that are all crazy, I live in Colorado and love the snow, 

I love music and in all reality wish I could be a rock star not a writer or a bartender but I have zero talent 

so there is that.

I love to write, love to read and all I’m interested in is a good story with interesting characters that make 

the reader feel something.

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